I'm not even going to dignify this with a response

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Woo hoo

I haven't seen a mouse since Tuesday. I'm wondering if it decided to stay away from my cats.

Scott comes home tomorrow night for a whole week. YAAAAAAAAAAY. I miss him. He'll be home when I get my new mattress so we can break it in. Woo hoo.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Schedule?

Ah, vacation day. I'm really only working three days this week, since I only worked an hour and a half yesterday and I'm taking today off. I love it.

I woke up this morning around 6am. One of my cats was huddled in the corner growling at the other cat. He had something in his mouth, and when he let it go, it scurried across the room. I kind of figured it was a mouse, but I didn't see it again. So I went back to bed.

I was getting ready to take a shower around 10am, and I saw it run into the kitchen. So I definitely have a mouse in my apartment. I wish my cats would go after it, instead of sleeping on the bed as they are right now. Jay used to kill mice in Mom's house, so I don't see why he wouldn't do it in my apartment. They'd better. Bleh.

Scott is in Mississippi this week. I saw him for a whole day and a half this weekend, and that's all I've seen him in the last week and a half. I miss his stupid face. I'm horny, too. I don't like only having sex a couple times on the weekends, especially since weekends are usually so busy for me. I'm always tired after working on the weekends. Seems like I want sex more during the week, and I think it's because I'm much less tired.

It sucks having a vastly different schedule. I think I'm even more tired than I would be if I worked the same schedule every week. I really need some kind of routine.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

More is at stake

Oh, I am lonely. Scott is in town and I'm still lonely.

I can't decide if I would be happier if we lived together or not. I guess if I do find the answer, and it is yes, then I should probably just dump him now and get it over with, because it will never happen.

He might talk about us being together in the future, but I'm pretty sure he thinks we'll be together in exactly the same way. Unfortunately, I don't think I would be very happy with that. At what point will I be so unhappy with it that I will be ready to move on? It's not even about getting married, either. It's more about moving in together, and sharing life together. You don't have to be married to do that.

I don't know. I LIKE sharing a bed with him (even if he does steal the covers). It's nice to wake up in the morning with someone there.

It's very hard to be the one who is more committed and more in love, and more ready to move forward. It sucks to have someone more attached to you than you are to them, sure, but it's even harder to be the one for whom more is at stake. I've been both.

I would really like to make him come over here and have sex with me.

Monday, October 01, 2007

Am I?

I got laid more when I was single than I do now. Is Scott traveling too much, or am I just a whore?